OMGOODNESS, my best friend... I still can't make this feel real. You are the sister i had always wanted and felt responsible for. I promised your momma I would take care of you and kayden. Who has grown up so much. I get to watch him grow up from a distance and I know he has no idea who I am. He looks JUST LIKE YOU!! It's almost scary. I'm thankful Eathen stepped up and raised him as his own. That was like his little brother u know.. Happy belated birthday by the way... u just hit 38 and I just made 39 11days b4 you...smh... how's heaven? Gotta be better than here. Im so ready to come home... the human race have lost their minds... I just wanted to let u know I miss u and I love u so much...

BETH, I sit here 2night with a heavy ass heart wanting to talk to.u but I have no number to dial to hear ur voice. My heart breaks :broken_heart: everytime I think about u. You were my best friend and I Loved you so much. I KNOW WE BOTH HAD A PROBLEM but I knew you sober and u truly had a heart of gold. I don't care what anyone says. They know better that to day anything bad about u around me . You were my best friend and my sister... my life feels empty knowing ur gone. It doesn't feel real to me... im glad Kayden has Eathen, I know u loved ur son. I know u still do. Addiction is hard, I wish u would have came up here girl.... GOD... why didn't u just call me... my heart hurts for but at least I know ur with mom dad and ur 1st love no more pain ... no more suffering... I know My mom &dad welcomed u with open arms. Please keep watch over me down here... I need someone at times... I love u so much Beth. I wish Eathen would keep intouch and let me see Kayden but I have 2 respect his wifes boundaries... love you soo much moss u more than ull ever know